"Maybe success isn't in believing I can do anything but in knowing I can do nothing." -- Emily P.Freeman
I woke up this morning dizzy and aching, my expectations for myself gnawing at the glowing fringes of the day like a red-eyed rat. I have two days off each week to tackle volunteer duties for the grass-roots organizations I'm involved in, manage the house, and attempt to build a shiny, inspiring art business.
Once in a while I am undeniably convinced by the Holy Spirit that it's time for a re-alignment, a mini sabbatical day of doing nothing save for being still and making myself small before the Lord. I devoted myself to it mentally yesterday after I had a melt-down over the thought of losing an important receipt (which later surfaced from the trunk of the car). Later I found out my plans for secluding myself at home today were foiled. I had a 9:00 am meeting. Fail. Once I got home, I sent out a couple of emails and set off into the sunshine to take a walk and reset for the day.
I'm meditating now on Emily Freeman's writings in "Simply Tuesday," which I spent time in yesterday. I don't know about you, but those glittering handlettered graphics on Instagram and Facebook telling us "Your Network is Your Net Worth," "Work Until Your Idols Become Your Rivals," "Hustle," and "Nothing Will Make You Feel Better But Doing the Work," sometimes feel like a load of crap. What I am holding dear in my heart today are Emily's words on smallness instead:
"those things I wish were different about myself are perhaps not holding me back but are pointing me forward to pay attention to my small eight-foot assignment. . . here's to not letting our slowness boss us . . . let slow do what slow does best: nourish, strengthen, and hold. Here's to deep roots, strong ties, and slow art."
Savoring that phrase -- Slow Art -- doesn't that sound healing? I think I'll grab a brush and paint a little something just for the process today, take a cat nap in the sun, ignore a couple of emails, and maybe even skip that evening meeting. In the meantime, here's a new kind of graphic for all of my #girlboss friends out there battling the negative self-talk, the expectations we set for ourselves, playing the comparison game, etc.
When we recognize our inability, we can acknowledge the work of Christ in us and focus on what His purpose is for us.
Be well, friends. Don't be afraid of small. Seek out your"eight-foot" assignment for the moment, and do it well in His ability.